“Rachel, you know…”

I have visited three different doctors over the past six weeks for various baby/adoption reasons and they have all told me the same thing, “Rachel, you know, it would probably be a good thing if you lost some weight. It might help with….(take your pick)” And what am I thinking–**Actually, No, I didn’t know. I thought it was just bloating. Could you tell me again how FAT I’ve become? Could you tell me one more time how my fertility, current health, and future mortality all hinge on this one factor. That would really help my body image and self-esteem (wink, nod). * *

Okay, seriously, here’s the skinny (ha ha). The doctors are right, duh! Hello, I can’t even look at the scale when they weigh me. As far as I know, I’m in good health (except for that whole baby thing)…great blood pressure, blood sugar, and pulse. But I want to keep it that way. If this had been a previous miscarriage, I would’ve fallen back into the ooey gooey chocolatey goodness of ice cream and not come out for a long long long time. But I can’t blame the sadness of the miscarriages anymore. It’s not fair to me, my husband, or my future children.

I did lose a little weight before this last miscarriage. Now it’s time to get back on wagon. So, what to do? What to do? Hmm, I know, I’ll train for the SLC Marathon.

Okay, I’m only doing the 1/2 marathon and I’ll probably walk half of it. But that’s alright with me. It is the perfect goal for me right now. It’s how I kept fit before. And it’s the perfect thing to occupy me as I wait for adoption stuff to happen. THANKS JENA for the idea. She is coming up for it in April. Jena was my workout buddy before Adona and before we moved. I miss going to swim and do yoga with my best bud. She has a friend she is training with in Las Vegas. My hoped for training buddy (who shall remain nameless) informed me that HE doesn’t want to do it *Boo, Hiss*. That leaves me to myself. I can do it. I know I can. I think I’ll post a weekly mileage log here so my dear friends who read this can encourage me. Please encourage me. I NEED IT.

3 Replies to ““Rachel, you know…””

  1. You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! And you know I am totally inspired by you because it is something I could NEVER do in a million years. Well, I could do it if it didn’t require running.

    I am behind you 100%. I will be the friend on the sideline dousing you with cold bottled water when you run by and cheering and snapping pictures. Yes, all at the same time. (And picture all of this in slow motion. A better effect.)

    Love you! YOU CAN DO IT!

  2. Good for you sis! And hello to yourself??? What about training buddy sis? I know I’ve been slacking but I keep telling you I want to do it I just need the help and partner so here ya go I nominate me of course especially since I have motivation now ;) tahiti:) So I may not run with you but everything else and the gym – your on! I love you and know you have the mind set and I am going to try and be that rock for you to keep you going cause I know what’s it’s like to need help and someone to do it with! xoxoxoxoxo

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