Things I suck at lately:
putting the laundry away
posting on our family blog
calling mom and dad just for fun
keeping up on the kids’ adoption life books
removing dishes out of my bedroom
having more faith during the current political climate
making a firm decision about becoming a foster parent
Things I rock at lately:
going to bed earlier
making Adam smile
daily calorie counting
posting on the adoption blog
paying closer attention to friendship
capturing more quiet moments
daily scripture study and meditation
loving my children more, on purpose
finding killer deals at Target, three weeks running
6350YUMMY peanut butter cheesecake from Cheesecake Factory. My mom and dad were in town on business during the week of my birthday so Adam and I were lucky enough to spend the evening out with both sets of our parents. I had the Luau salad, as usual. And we ordered the Factory Nachos as a starter. Does food get any better? Thanks again, mom and dad, for treating us. And Thank You–Angelina and Emily–for watching the kids–and for the scrumptious cupcakes. They were so cute, I didn’t want to eat them.
So becoming a mother is the only goal I wasn’t able to reach in my 25-30 five year plan. Instead of one healthy baby, I mourned three losses. Somehow, even at 33, I am still insanely jealous of those who reach that same goal. I think it is simply because I am used to doing whatever I say I am going to do. In that respect, not bearing children has been a completely humbling experience for me. And yet, I am still jealous. I guess I have a ways to go in the perfection department.
There were some momentous positives to my before 30 plan. I got married, traveled to five more countries, and finished my masters degree. All things I am extremely proud of, and grateful for. So at 33 I am left wondering, why didn’t I make a new five year plan at 30? I am all about goal-making and attaining. I think fertility and adoption took over my life for awhile, and it was difficult to focus on anything else. I am now resolved to have a two year plan. I will post the results when I am finished contemplating.