happy 33rd to me

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YUMMY peanut butter cheesecake from Cheesecake Factory.  My mom and dad were in town on business during the week of my birthday so Adam and I were lucky enough to spend the evening out with both sets of our parents. I had the Luau salad, as usual. And we ordered the Factory Nachos as a starter. Does food get any better? Thanks again, mom and dad, for treating us. And Thank You–Angelina and Emily–for watching the kids–and for the scrumptious cupcakes. They were so cute, I didn’t want to eat them.

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So becoming a mother is the only goal I wasn’t able to reach in my 25-30 five year plan. Instead of one healthy baby, I mourned three losses. Somehow, even at 33, I am still insanely jealous of those who reach that same goal. I think it is simply because I am used to doing whatever I say I am going to do. In that respect, not bearing children has been a completely humbling experience for me. And yet, I am still jealous. I guess I have a ways to go in the perfection department.

There were some momentous positives to my before 30 plan. I got married, traveled to five more countries, and finished my masters degree. All things I am extremely proud of, and grateful for. So at 33 I am left wondering, why didn’t I make a new five year plan at 30? I am all about goal-making and attaining. I think fertility and adoption took over my life for awhile, and it was difficult to focus on anything else. I am now resolved to have a two year plan. I will post the results when I am finished contemplating.

This entry was posted on Wednesday, March 18th, 2009 at 12:08 pm by rachel and is filed under birthdays, fertility. Print This Post.
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4 Responses to “happy 33rd to me”

  1. babyltx wrote on March 18th, 2009 at 8:12 pm :

    While you’re at it,…make mine too???? Please???

  2. jaimeemarie wrote on March 19th, 2009 at 12:29 pm :

    Rach you look so beautiful and happy in that picture, I think that’s goal enough ;) So fun to have all mom and dad’s w/you on your special day! Wish I could of been there! Love you:)

  3. pinkprincessjlw wrote on March 19th, 2009 at 3:21 pm :

    Happy birthday, my sweet friend! I have a feeling that the next five years will be the best to date. I am so proud of all you have accomplished so far!

  4. andrea wrote on March 22nd, 2009 at 2:22 am :

    Happy Birthday. I also love the Cheesecake Factory.

    I really like your idea of a multiple year plan. Maybe if I do that I can get over some of the mundane aspects of just focusing on the chores I need to do each week. It sounds like a great way to remember the bigger picture. (How are you so wise when you are only 1.5 years older? I just realized that makes you older than Adam. He got caught be a cougar!)

    ;o)

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